This will be my

fourth consecutive morning walk... assuming I follow through. I will. I just know I will. I'm trying to get back into a routine. It's so easy for me to get sidetracked. I have tons to do around the house and I'll start thinking about that and then get overwhelmed. That won't happen today. I've been listening to an audiobook while I walk. I didn't plan on it. I'd gone to urgent care for an antibiotic the other day and the panic set in. I start to panic and cry. OMG. I'm just really putting my anxiety all out here. Anyway, I get the worries and then doom and gloom set in. So, I searched for a book on Spotify. Maybe it was something like "calm down", just something basic. This came up.

So I started listening. He started listing off things and it described me, straight down to the "not making time for that photography class you've been wanting to take". Also, this is me out on my walk...

Hey, it's no secret. Anyway, I'm listening and seeing if there's anything I can take away from the book. Actually, I think I already have. Back to that urgent care visit, my bp was a little high. Yes, I was totally worked up, but I've also always had low bp. Might some of that be because I'm a 53-year-old woman? Possibly. My point is, instead of doom and gloom, I paused for a second and realized that I can make changes. I know I'm always talking about doing better, but now is the time to stick to it. Follow through and do better. Make changes and see if it helps. Maybe I can prove to myself that I can make changes. Then, maybe that will be a little bit of evidence for my brain to stop doom and gloom. I don't know. All I can do is try. I'm starting small and only walking a little over a mile. I'll be honest again. I start thinking during my walk, going over my to-do list and everything that I also need to do right now. "I still haven't made the bed. I could've started another load of laundry before I left. Before anything, I need to unload the dishwasher. I feel like decluttering, what else can I get rid of?" See how it goes? I'm rambling now.

I've been keeping up with my walks, kind of. I start the app to track me, but then I usually forget to stop it. I didn't really walk 84 miles yesterday. We went to a movie in Houston and I was still being tracked. We saw the new Elvis movie.

It was good. I think the last movie I went to was also an Elvis concert. 

Okay, so before I get sidetracked, it's time for my morning walk.