I haven't been doing

very well at sticking with anything. I've been doing better than I was, but I'm still not doing as well as I had hoped. I cheat a lot, kind of. I guess I'm not really cheating if my goal is to just cut back and make changes. All that said, my knee has been bothering me today. Today felt like a way that I don't like feeling. I'm serious here. I want to make changes. I'm 52. I need to make changes. I want to be doing better before July 17th. I was looking around today and saw several recommendations for THIS book. 

I researched a little and bought it. It's short so I read most of it during rest time today. It basically says everything I've been hearing and trying. I hope it was the pep talk I needed. It reminded me that feeling better starts with me and that doctors are just going to give me meds to fix symptoms. It just made me feel more determined to do better. I wanted a Coke, but I didn't get one. Yes, I had a Diet Dr Pepper instead, but cutting out the sugar has to be a little better, right? Besides, I didn't even finish it. You know why? I got in the pool and got busy moving.

Anyway, it's time to straighten up and fly right. Things are changing in a way that I don't like. I can't give up everything. I do love sweets and I do need comfort food, but that's probably a whole other issue. I'm going to keep on doing better, making changes, and adding those fruits and vegetables. I stopped for a small coffee after dinner. I needed dessert so I feel like it could've been worse.

UGH. Getting old is hard. Trying to do the right thing is even harder.

Meanwhile, while I'm struggling to make better choices, the grandkids are living their best, carefree life.

And I love it.

It's summer and

things are busy. Things are busy and I'm tired. Are naps frowned upon during summer? Don't naps and summer go hand in hand? It seems like they should.

We made pizzas the other day for lunch. We used premade crusts and I let the kids DIY their toppings. The granddaughter made mine.

Trying to do better, mine was red bell pepper and spinach. Today's lunch was a spinach salad with leftover grilled chicken. Just when I start to give up on myself, I go and make a good decision. 

That's about it around here. I've been babysitting, trying to eat better, and catching up (and finishing) The Handmaid's Tale. I quit watching after season 4. I got bored with it. Now that it ended, I felt like I should see how it all played out. I thought I had one season to watch, but it was two. It was hard to start back up with season 5. I kept going, playing it while I was doing housework. I finally finished. It was meh. I think I was just over it all. I was tired of the story. I was tired of their characters. I was tired of their acting. I do appreciate the closure, though. The final episode was boring, but I did appreciate it. I read that there will be a spinoff. No thanks. I'll just let somebody fill me in.

I wish I could power through meatless Mediterranean meals as well as I did that show. 

Oh, well. That's about all I've got.